I had a good time at lunch yesterday. It would've been great except that one of my former colleagues is still angry and bitter about being laid off. I kept trying to steer the conversation in a positive direction because she kept pushing it in a negative direction! I left there exhausted! For lunch, I ordered potato skins because I read online that Chili's had the best after a test of nationwide chain restaurants. They were truly delicious! I could only eat two of the five, but they'll reheat well for lunch (and dinner) today! I realize that potato skins laden with cheese and bacon aren't the healthiest choice, but once in a while, they are truly satisfying. (Plus my total cholesterol is 132--which is awesome!)
I know that I was depressed for the past seven weeks. It hurt--a lot--to lose a job I loved, especially after I had done so much for the school. But truth be told, I didn't do it for the school. I worked hard for the kids. And I'll do it for the kids at my new school. But holding anger toward ANYONE gives that person power and control over you. And I wasn't going to give that jerk who took over Prep that much power. He doesn't deserve it. And my former colleague needs to remember that. I understand that she is frustrated, but she needs to remember how HORRIBLE it's going to be there this year. They are implementing a new, UNAPPROVED curriculum. They are a month behind. Their buildings are being torn apart. They have to report back to work on the 8th, which is NINE DAYS earlier than any other school district around here (including mine--other than new teacher orientation, my first day is the 17th). They have a longer work day. They are going back earlier, staying later, working longer days--all with NO extra money. And their new leader--the aforementioned JERK--is not an educator and knows NOTHING about running a school. She needs to remember these things!
And YOU need to remember this: Anger does more damage to the vessel in which it's stored than to anything it's poured upon. Think of anger as an acid. It eats away at you until there's nothing left. Let go. Let go of your anger before it destroys you.