Today has been a really bad day. I'm depressed. My friend Dorothy is in California. My friend Crystal is at the beach. Daisy is in Florida, and James doesn't seem to care (but that's another story unto itself...) My pain is definitely less; I'm finding the horrible taste of the liquid Lortabs too much to deal with whereas before, the pain was so great that I just dealt with it. Food commercials are beginning to bother me a little. The first couple of days at home the thought of food was nauseating. Now, I'm missing solid food. As of Saturday, I'll be able to drink Special-K protein drinks and other "nonclear" liquids which actually is something to look forward to.
This is definitely not for the faint of heart. It's painful, alienating, physically challenging..and depressing. Did I mention depressing?
Be strong and know that I'm here if you need to talk. I know you've been hearing this from multiple people but please know and be assured that the decision you have been is whats best for you and best for your health!!! At the end of the day you MUST take care of Rhonda first and everything else follows after!!! I'm glad to hear your finally taking care of you! Love you and it will get better!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Nichole...I love you MUCH. xox
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