I'm really down. I have to admit it. Life is really difficult right now, and in the past when life was difficult, I could turn to food. I don't have that option anymore. So I'm feeling it--and feeling awful. Today, I got away from my mother for a while and went to the Christmas Tree Shoppe and to Five Below, both of which I really love. When I came out of Five Below, I discovered I had missed a call. It was from the Raleigh area, so I dialed it. Forgetting that NY is hands-free cell phone wise, I found that it was someone checking a reference for a friend and former colleague. I promptly got pulled over for driving with a cell phone. The ticket will probably cost me $50 or more. More crap to deal with...as if my life isn't sucking ENOUGH right now.
No job. No love life. No money. And now a ticket. Sucks, sucks, sucks. And I KNOW that people mean well, but I am SO tired of hearing that God has a plan. Because whatever His plan is, it's not HELPING me right now.