I've decided to stop blogging for a while. First, I'm down about not having a job. Second, Kevin ended our relationship, saying he had other "obligations that will require most of (his) time". The news devastated me because 1) it was out of the blue, and 2) I was developing real feelings for him. (And the really sad part is that I know he was developing feelings for me, too.)
It's too hard to write about being positive when I'm feeling anything but. Jason called and asked me out again. I confessed to him that I only went out to dinner with him on the rebound last week, but he said he didn't care--that he'd still like to take me out again. I didn't say yes. I think I'm done with giving people my heart for a while.
I'll be back...I just don't know when. Maybe when I get a job. Or after my annual recheck, which is early because I had to make an appointment before my insurance runs out, so it's July 19. All I know is that I can't do this right now.
Thank you all SO very much for all your support. I'm crying as I type this because I feel close to each and every one of you.