A First...and LAST Date!

I had a "date" Sunday.  He was a man I met online; we only exchanged a couple emails and he wanted to meet.  He seemed like a nice guy, and I liked his photo. We met in a VERY public place, but it didn't stop him from suggesting that we take it private.  Ugh.  What the heck is wrong with men that they think women are going to sleep with them on a first date? Does this happen to everyone?  Or is it because I'm fat that men think I'm going to put out out of gratitude?  Grateful for the slightest attention?

I'm no prude, but what happened to getting to know people first?  Is this what being thinner is going to get me?  No, thank you! I'll tell you, though--60 pounds ago, I might have fallen for his lines...(and trust me, he had 'em).  But yesterday, instead of worrying about whether or not he was going to like me, my concern was more whether I was going to like him!  That alone is SO much healthier!

Jason was the second man in about a month that I've said "no" to...both he and the other guy, Bill, came on SO strong.  Without arrogance, I can say that while I'm not perfect, I am a pretty good "catch".  Bill is 39, newly divorced, lives with his mother and stepfather and sells videogames for a living.  Jason allegedly trained for the Olympics in martial arts, allegedly worked as a mechanical engineer until he sold his house in Colorado and bought a boat, allegedly lives on said boat and allegedly sells junk at flea markets for a living. (I say "allegedly" because I didn't believe much of what he told me; my radar was pinging like I was in a mine field).  Neither one of these two guys is exactly what I'd call a "winner", and I think that I DESERVE a winner! I'm not about to "settle" for just any guy.

I don't have to sleep with a guy to get him to like me--if he can't see my value without seeing my bedroom, good riddance to him! I am emotionally healthy enough to know that it's better to be alone than with the wrong guy.  I have been with the wrong guy before--and it sucked.  The good news is that I really don't mind being alone--I have said before that I like my company, and I do.  It would be nice to have someone to do things with--but not at the price of my self-esteem.  I've worked too long and too hard to get it!