When I wrote yesterday's blog, I was reeling a bit from my conversation with "Buddy". He and I have been having a great time--apparently too great a time, because he's a little scared and wants to "slow down". Well, given a good night's sleep, I realized that he's absolutely right! I need to explore my new life and the options out there; my dating "pool" is growing exponentially as I lose this weight. Plus we're going to continue to see each other, so I'm going to see John on Saturday, Buddy on Sunday and who knows after that!
I had another epiphany today as well! Today, Latishea wore one of the tops I gave her--one of my favorites: the purple and black big shirt. I had tried it on the day before I washed it and packed it away for her--and I swam in it! It was huge. The top looked good on Latishea--and it fit her perfectly. I've been feeling like she and I are the same size still, and today I realized that that just isn't true! It really truly hit home; I have lost a considerable amount of weight!!
I know that sounds stupid inasmuch as I've lost more than EIGHTY pounds, but you have to understand that the numbers are meaningless. Let's see if I can explain--for eight years, I drove a red Mitsubishi Mirage. Then I bought a black Dodge Stratus. For two years or more, I "felt" like I was still driving the Mitsu, and when I caught a glimpse of myself and the car in a store window, I was blown away. I knew that I was in the bigger car, but I still felt like I was driving the little one. Now I'm driving a bright blue Toyota Corolla, and I still feel like I'm driving the Dodge, even though I truly love my Toyota!
That's the way it is with this weight loss. I love this new body, but I still think I'm "driving" the old one! Just as I don't realize how small the Toyota is until I pull into a parking space, I don't realize how much smaller I am until I try to put "big" clothes on!
It's finally Friday, friends!! Enjoy it!